just another phase

life really seems to be organized in many phases; with the passing of one, there is always another. some are big and really memorable but most seem to be smaller and less significant. obviously going to junior high, graduating from high school, going to college, living on your own for the 1st time, getting married and living with a new person, being a newlywed, being married with more experience, having a baby and then having another, and on and on are all phases i would consider pretty monumental.

the phase that seems to be upon me is far less memorable in the grand scheme of things, but it feels big right now. big for me and big for sam. his whole life he has had so much one on one time with me; i think 1st born children can't help it. it must be part of their birthright or at least just how it works out. even after will was born sam still got a lot of time because will has always taken 2-3 hour naps everyday, and i would always make it a priority to do something with sam during that time besides just clean the whole time. will is ending his nap phase; he's about an every other day taker now. i've just realized that the phase of sam having one-on-one time will be over once the nap is over. we will continue to sew, play games, bake bread, paint, snuggle in bed and read stories, etc.; we will just all being doing it together now. that's certainly not a negative thing. with the passing of one stage there is always another. sam is closing the phase of that firstborn one-on-one time, and he is entering the stage of being a full-blown sibling, sharing everything especially time. i must re-iterate, this is NOT a negative. just like the phase of newlywed to experienced is not a negative thing. it simply just marks the closing of one phase and the beginning a new one. we are transitioning right now, and i have a hard time recalling how the closing and beginning of a new phase has been so obvious to me.