all the roads

i had a wonderful dream last night.

it was interesting but wonderful.

i must admit that i love dreams.

they seem to tap into emotions that i can't quite get to during a regular day.

and that's exactly what happened last night as i took a walk down memory lane.

i was re-living all the relationships that i have had from late high school into adulthood.

i had gone back in this dream to re-live them with the knowledge that i have now.

the most amazing part was that i didn't want to do any relationship differently.

instead i could see more clearly than i did then how meaningful each one was.

i could see the specific gifts for my personality that i took away from each one.

and it was WONDERFUL!

the best part though?

each of those roads led me to the same spot that i am now...

they all led me to pete.

and that's exactly where i want my road to end.

i appreciate the emotions that i had all along the way though

because in the end i brought those emotions into my relationship,

and it all culminates into a type of depth that i wouldn't have had without them.

what a trip!

i woke this morning clamoring for old photographs and journal entries,

and looking & reading was such a reminder that everything was great even back then.

i've been a pretty lucky girl.