as good as it gets

i was alone tonight.

i finished working early,

and pete had taken the kids to the pool.

my house was quiet,

and not the kind of quiet i like.

i missed my kids,

i missed their sounds,

their requests,

and mostly just their presence.

i was overwhelmed with what a privilege it is to be their mother.

as i thought of their devoted love & interest to me,

it dawned on me that this stage of life i'm in is certainly as good as it is going to get.

if i can't be happy with this wonderful life,

then i'm afraid i will never be happy.

and i am happy.

perhaps happier than ever.